#20 Coming Back to the Mystery + Letting the World in Consciously

Every morning when we wake up, the world is created anew.  When we are dreaming, in a sense, we are outside of the world.   Most(if not all) of our daily concerns are gone during sleep.  Upon waking, each thought we have slowly “brings the world back in.”  A morning ritual helps to make this a conscious process where you can decide what is important and what kind of world you want to live in.  While practical concerns can inundate our brain, it can be a relief upon waking to remember the great mystery that life is.   Ultimately, we are on a floating ball in the middle of vast vast space.    After contemplating that, you can worry about anything that you want to. 

#19 Focus on One Thing and Be Great at It (Sharing some advice that I'm currently taking)

Cliche advice is often cliche advice because it works.  Here’s some advice that I am currently taking:  Focus on one thing and be great at it.  The yogis may talk about this as digging 100 shallow wells looking for oil vs. digging 1 deep one - only the 1 deep one will strike oil.  Someone from the business world might call it “The lead domino” - one thing you can do that will make all other things easier.   People may have many talents - but they typically initially become successful at one thing.  After that, it becomes easier to branch out.  I’m taking this advice because I have been in such violation of it.  For example, here are some of the jobs i’ve done in the past few years: 


Bassist with organ trio (Kennedy Center, Jazz Foundation of America Gala)

Orchestrator (for several televised events, galas, and documentaries)

Pianist/Composer hired to write and perform music in the style of Jazz piano virtuoso Oscar Peterson

Nylon String/ Classical Guitarist for one woman show

Film Composer 

Producer (pop, folk, jazz, film) 

Music Director for several shows 

Non-profit executive director

Venue executive director

Talent Buyer

Music Director of spiritual music festival in Hawaii

Jazz Big Band and Quintet arranger      


Show Runner for talk show


The point is, I will never be the best at all of these things.  And in this day and age you have to compete with the best in whatever you do.  It’s great to be able to try many things and to learn, but in the end commitment and clear priorities are necessary to advance.  If you don’t declare what you want, you will put out an unclear signal to others who will then use you for what they want.  As the saying goes: “If you don't build your dream someone will hire you to help build theirs.”

Ok, I’m gonna go back to focusing now. 

#18 'The Deeper Mind' + Thinking as an activity

Many spiritual practices focus on quieting the mind or letting thoughts pass without investing in them.  This can be very helpful in dealing with persistent negative or stressful thoughts.  Something that is not often stressed in these traditions (but I think is very worthy of mention) is the positive aspects of focusing on thoughts.  Once the practicioner has learned to unattached from the compulsive negative/limiting thoughts - there is room for what I might call ‘the deeper mind’ to emerge.  This is the mind that is endlessly curious about anything and everything.  The mind that enjoys exploring problems and their solutions.  When this mind is allowed to emerge one can enjoy sitting and thinking for hours.  Many creative people set aside time for thinking.  Do you make time for thinking in your life?  Time to let your mind revel in unlimited possibilities?  If you don’t, I highly recommend stopping to take 5 minutes to enjoy your thoughts and to see where your mind can go. 

#17 In The Future We Will Have An Expanded Experience of Music

Though we think of music as an invisible entity(that we hear and don't see), we know that it is a physical process.  A drummer strikes his snare drum, the drum vibrates rapidly making the air around it vibrate.  The vibrating air molecules reach your ear making your eardrum vibrate.  A psychological process then happens in your brain as it interprets the sound.   What if we could actually see this process?  What does music look like?  Will the way we make/experience music change when the technology that allows us to see it becomes commonplace?  

Here are some experiments in revealing the physical nature of music:

#16 Meditations on Identity 2

Exploring The Idea of Intergenerational Identity: 

is it fair to say that we’ve become a fairly self-obsessed culture?  Carefully cultivating our social media profiles and public image.  

We choose what we share with others and how we define ourselves.  Our sense of “roots” is also changing.  Many of us end up living far from our birthplace and from our families of origin.  When we have success in the world, our image and our name are praised.  We are rewarded with money and opportunities.  But are we separate from our roots?  

Would Mark Zuckerberg have founded Facebook if his father didn’t teach him computer programming as child? 

Would Brad Pitt be the well regarded leading man without his parents genetics?  

The person and these experiences/attributes are inseparable.  So why do we reward the individual for their accomplishments and not their ancestry?  How much of “us” IS our ancestry and our past experiences?    Can we truly take credit for our accomplishments?  In the same way, can we take credit for our failures?     This may seem like silly thing to ask but the implications are huge.  What changes would we see in our culture if we defined ourselves not as individual bodies but as an intergenerational aggregate? 

#15 Meditations on Identity 1

Exploring different ideas of identity:

We often think of “ourselves” as our personality and our body.

Are you really these things? 

If you are not trained in anatomy, then many other people know “your” body better than you do.

You do not make your heart beat, you don’t make your blood flow, it does that without “your” intervention.  

The idea of personality is an abstract concept. It doesn't actually exist anywhere.  It’s something created by thoughts and interactions.  

You may have a relationship with your body and with the idea of your personality but you are not those things. 

So who are you actually? 

#14 Two Sides of Learning an Art:

If we never play with abandon, - our expression will be too technical and will feel stale

If we never practice with discipline - our expression will be sloppy and limited

If you’re more on the technical side - experimenting with spontaneity can be helpful (a common practice is improvising for 20minutes in your medium)   

if you’re more on the spontaneous side - learning something very structured and exact can be helpful (a common practice is precisely imitating someone elses work)

Flow happens in that place where discipline and freedom meet.

#13 Don't Miss the Joy of Ignorance

After taking a Chinese Medicine class in college I would practice sets of qigong meditations designed to help the health of 5 organs in the body(kidney, liver, spleen, heart, lungs.)  The practice that I had learned required me to spend 10 minutes focusing intensely on each organ(50 minutes total.)   Although I followed the instructions, I had a very hard time ‘feeling’ my organs.  After a few months of what I perceived as failure, I gave up this practice.  Being older now, I often feel my organs without trying.  I look at it as their way of telling me that I need to make a lifestyle adjustment to take care of my health.   When I was trying to feel my organs I couldn’t feel them.  Now I’m not trying to feel them yet I can.  My somewhat comical point is this: you really only need to feel your organs when they are giving you pain signals.  If you’re young and healthy don’t try to ‘feel’ your organs.  Just go outside and have fun or something.

#12 "Waking Up" Experience #2

I was standing on the 4th floor of my college dormitory looking down at the courtyard.  Every few minutes a new group of students would pass through.   From this bird’s eye view it was easy to notice patterns.  The members of each group had similar physical characteristics.   First it was the big football players, then it was the African-American kids, then the nerdy kids, etc.  At that moment, the thought came to me: “if we are only comfortable hanging around with people who are superficially similar to ourselves, how do we really get to know ourselves or others?”   From that moment on I began a quest to know “otherness.”  I wanted to get to know anyone who appeared to be different from me.  This led me to prolonged situations where I was the only caucasian, the only male, the only non-something.  

We are the same at the core.  To understand the different packages that we come in helps us to understand different sides of ourself.  If we are scared of superficial, external differences then we will never understand our own humanity. 

#11 My first "Waking Up" Experience

My first “waking up” experience as a young man went like this:  I was walking around Harvard Square in Cambridge, Massachussettes lost in my own thoughts as usual.  I looked around and saw so many other people walking the streets.  Suddenly, A thought came to me that interrupted all my other thoughts: “if every other person has equally complex thoughts and experiences in life as I do, what makes my own life meaningful?”  Many years later, I was surprised to see that a word was coined that means exactly this.  The word is “Sonder”  and it’s defined as:  the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness etc.  

That realization was the beginning of my thinking outside of the box known as egocentrism.

How do you relate to the idea of Sonder?  


#10: Just a List of Some of the Things I’ll Be Doing This Week

Monday:  Writing music charts for Amateur Night At The Apollo.   

Monday-Tuesday: Meetings for my non-profit “Your Time To Shine”  (yourtimetoshine.net)

Wednesday: Amateur Night at the Apollo (playing keyboards and guitars)

Thursday: Edit my podcast featuring Danny Goldberg (former manager of Nirvana, head of Mercury and Warner records, etc.)

Edit audio for tv/internet show I wrote/produced “One With Everything” (onewitheverything.tv)

Monday-Thursday: Producing 5 song EP for vocalist Nicole Vanessa Ortiz

Friday: Work on my music, work on music for an upcoming Broadway show

Saturday: Benefit concert for ALS (Music Directing, Bass, Keyboard)

Sunday: Fly to Los Angeles, California

#9: Insight Into The True Nature of Things

This video shows a series of extreme closeups of “ordinary” objects.  As we are able to look very closely at something, we see that it is has many imperfections and is broken down into smaller components.  What seems unified and perfect has many imperfections.  It can be good to remember that we cannot trust our senses to give us an accurate representation of the world.   When we are driving or operating heavy machinery, it helps us to block out a large amount of information to help us concentrate on the task at hand.  When we are not focused on a task or on our survival, we can look at things more deeply and perhaps catch a glimpse into the true nature of things;  Not only of objects, but of ourselves as well.

#8: The Illusion of "Tradition"

“Do not seek to follow in the footsteps of the wise. Seek what they sought.” Matsuo Basho

This is great advice for an artist.  Don’t let the medium become more important than the message.  Interacting with like-minded people in other mediums of art will show you this.  Traditions are created by free-thinking, risk-taking artists who use the materials of their time to express themselves.  If we try to emulate their art, we are missing the point that they were trying to express the intangible through the available mediums of their day.  Beethoven had the piano, Charlie Parker had the alto saxophone, today we have all kinds of electronic instruments.  We can look at the music of Beethoven and appreciate its genius but it helps us to remember that the piano was the greatest technology of his day.  It would be silly for us to neglect all of the new ways that we can experiment with sound because Beethoven wrote such great music for the piano.  Imagine what a radical and innovative artist like Beethoven or Charlie Parker would be doing today.  You can study their music and learn from it but don’t make it gospel.  They certainly wouldn’t. 

#7: Choosing between something large and prestigious vs. something small and inspired.

I have played in jazz clubs for an audience of 20 where the inspiration and creative energy were palpable. At the same time, I have played gigantic venues for thousands of people with some of the most famous artists where the over all feeling was sterile and uninspired.  What is “big” and what is powerful has much less to do with external circumstances than we are led to believe.  If you are called to do something “small” and inspired, then the satisfaction that you get from that will be greater than what a more prestigious and “valid” position will offer you.  We can gain graspable things from these prestigious positions - knowledge, experience, financial resources - but the most satisfaction, by far will come from following your inner calling.  Also remember that large, prestigious institutions are often created from small and inspired experiments. 

#6: The Grammys

The Grammys were this past week.  I haven’t watched them since I was a kid.  I watched a little this time to see some friends who were performing on the show. I stopped watching the Grammys many years ago because it goes against my sense of what music is about.  As musicians in the modern world, we all have to package, brand, and market ourselves to have viable careers - but in the end I believe that no one “owns” music.  We borrow music.  Music is something that passes through us, temporarily using us as it’s instrument.  Music reflects the endless creativity that is our nature and the nature of the universe. 

#5: Experiencing Your Infinite Self Through Nature

I studied with a well known musician who, decades ago, had opportunities for fame and fortune in New York City.  Instead of pursuing those things, he picked up and moved far away to the mountains.  When asked “why?” he said that when he rode the subway he felt the pain of others and his reaching out to them led to disapproval and hostility.  

Cities like New York require us to occupy a small space and to have tight boundaries.  Although we walk within inches of each other, we live in entirely different worlds.  This sense of disconnection bothered the up and coming musician.  

When I lived in Hawaii, I had a large rock which sat at the edge of a cliff overlooking the Pacific Ocean.   The meditation that I would do on the rock consisted of watching the waves and harmonizing with their endless rhythmic movement.  This harmonization creates an experience of timelessness.  Then, I would shift my attention back and forth from my inner body to the ocean, not identifying with either.  This would lead to an experience of vastness.   

Another time that I have experienced this was a night when I was driving up to the great state of Maine.   At one point in the drive I realized that there was not a single man-made light in sight.  No cars, no houses, no streetlights.  I shut off the engine and sat there in the absolute silence and dark.  When you have no external references of time and no people to activate your sense of personal space, the experience of self can be unbounded. 

If you feel compressed from city life, perhaps you may try your own version of these experiences.  

#4: A Story About Balance

A few weeks into my trip to northern India I began to dream of the main street in the Connecticut town where I grew up.  I thought about how clean it was.  I thought about successfully we’ve dominated nature in the attempt to create a perfectly sanitized environment.  It was so orderly and comfortable.  I had spent the last two days being sick due to some mango juice that I ingested.  I couldn’t get a bottle of water that didn’t have a thick layer of dirt over it and the 12 hour drives along the edges of the Himalayan mountains were doing nothing to add to my comfort.  At the end of my trip I felt a relief upon returning to America.  I felt so grateful to be back in New York so I walked the streets with a big smile on my face saying hello to the passing strangers.  They all looked down and carried on with their business.  At that moment, a great sadness fell over me.  Though the conditions were uncomfortable in India, there was a constant experience of humanity and connectedness.  It was a feeling of reverence and respect based on the collective understanding that being human meant that we were in this together.  Walking the New York streets and feeling so alone in my celebration made me aware of this difference.  

A young man that I met in Rishikesh told me his belief that “India and America are like two wings of a bird.  India is strong in spirituality, but weak materially.  American is strong materially, but weak spiritually.  A bird cannot fly with one strong wing and one weak one.”

#3: Heaven and Hell

Ever notice how some people can be happy in seemingly miserable circumstances while others can be miserable in seemingly perfect circumstances?  Heaven and Hell can be understood not as physical places but as metaphors for inner states.  Hell can be the experience of jealousy, regret, ego, expectation, addiction, and other negative emotions.  Heaven can be the experience of humility, joy, gratitude, love, and other positive emotions.  Find humility and the appreciation for simple things and you will find heaven on earth.  Here is a great story from the Zen tradition that illustrates this:  

A big, tough samurai once went to see a little monk.


He barked, in a voice accustomed to instant obedience.

"Teach me about heaven and hell!"

The monk looked up at the mighty warrior and replied with utter disdain,

"Teach you about heaven and hell? I couldn't teach you about anything. You're dumb. You're dirty. You're a disgrace, an embarrassment to the samurai class. Get out of my sight. I can't stand you."

The samurai got furious. He shook, red in the face, speechless with rage. He pulled out his sword, and prepared to slay the monk.

Looking straight into the samurai's eyes, the monk said softly,

"That's hell."

The samurai froze, realizing the compassion of the monk who had risked his life to show him hell! He put down his sword and fell to his knees, filled with gratitude.

The monk said softly,

"And that's heaven."

(This version of the story borrowed from  http://www.onbeing.org/blog/the-little-monk-and-the-samurai-a-zen-parable/5496)

#2: A Meditation on Stillness

The most powerful ideas and experiences come from stillness.  Stop. Listen deeply to yourself.  Don’t center yourself in your mind.  Rest into your body.   Thats where the essence of you can be found.  Ideas that are commonplace to you but possibly revolutionary to the world are there.  Trust what comes to you from this space. All your answers are there.  When you get quiet - the first thing you may notice is your breath.  The breath is like waves on the ocean - consistently and rhythmically moving.  Bring your awareness to your breath.  See what thoughts and ideas come to you when your attention, instead of being in your head, is on the breath in your body.

#1: Practices

A key to getting better at something is to make a commitment that you can keep.  Many beginners fail to recognize that 5 minutes of daily practice will lead to better results than 4 hours of practice one day per week.  The daily practice helps you to come back to the same problem with fresh eyes day after day.  Your weaknesses become apparent and you are able to bring your attention directly to where it is needed.    I've discovered this in my practice of musical instruments, martial arts, yoga, meditation, and studying Chinese(Mandarin.)   If you want to become great at something, start with a little every day.  If you are passionate about it, the 5 minutes will grow into 10 minutes, 1 hour, and eventually you will lose track of time as you practice.